ii think iim just one pathetic bitch.
OH WTH =.-x

forget about being unloved nd NOT RICH leadg a sucky life.

ii'v g0t no idea why we still can chat nonchalantly sometimes.
ii d0nt know what's d truth t everything.
nd it sucks, TOTALLY.
ii dont even know what iim tryg t do.
this for a moment nd that another.
knowing everything dont mean uu can apply them when uu face d problems
nd that's what gets me.
f0r fuck sake uu noe all d stuffs when it's hard t apply.
OH GREAT
a listener/advisor have no talent in handling their own stuffs.
nd what right they have t give comments ..
h0w ir0nic.
seri0usly ii d0nt kn0w what ii m h0ping f0r
things r FAR w0rst than before or shud ii sae it w0nt b g0od again.
having that NO RIGHT nd WHO ARE YOU feelg
凭什么在这里撒野
ii have no wish for his words t affect me but ii just cant help it.
ii hate that sometimes g0od nd sometimes bad thingy totally.
ii think ii did nothing t deserve this so worst.
ii simply hate him for being like that ..
sometimes ii wonder if he block+del me would b a g0od ch0ice
but like always, contradictory lies.
ii dont hope for that day t come toos ..


like being 感慨 about life but still having t live on w it.
GIVE ME A BREAK!
sometimes ii reali wonder why that lack of sleep ..
that incident caused me too much misery
or should ii sae, US.
ii dont know what he is going through but god, ii just hope things were better.
uu dont know how much ii blamed mineself ..
not for that matter only but for fallg asleep.
WHAT NORMAL THING but yet WHATTHEFUCK
ii swear things wouldn't turn out so bad for us.
seri0usly, no one, NO ONE understands.
or should ii sae .. they will never understand
nd likewise ..
ii d0nt nd never will understand what others feel, especially him.
so much t sae but ii guess that's enough for now.
pardon me for all these rants.
ii still miss/love him, nd ii do.
scold me ; slap me or whatever.
ii just dont wake up like a stubborn biatch.
life's like that.


what hurts d most, is being so close ..