like d usual ii'd sae ; ii l0ve mine sec sk0ol guys.
they r GREAT!
went chalet nd 0nli have 0ne pic.
d mess we made after eatg ;Xx


s0meh0w ii miss sec sk0ol.
ii realise it's m0re t0rtur0us n0w ..
nd there's s0 much thing that ii w0uld think twice bf0r saeing.
well .. whatever

stayed at home since tues.
playd w mine bro since ..
he's been acc0mpanyg me during d nite mostly these days.
thanks t him ii ain't that bored.
seri0usly, ii d0nt kn0w what will ii b d0ing if n0t f0r him.
at least he'd play games w me ..
even if he's n0t ; him being there is g0od en0ugh.
ii'd b just fine watchg him watch bleach.

ii kn0w s0mething's wr0ng w me, but ii d0nt kn0w what.


seri0usly ii d0nt kn0w what's that f0r but his nick did affect me.
f0r g0odness sake, ii wishd ii was g0ne.
seri0usly.
ii miss d times when iim 0n f0ne w nicole/peiis.
when ii can c0nfide in them ab0ut everything that b0thers me.
but n0w ii think thrice even if ii wanna tell ani0ne anithing.
it hurts.
it's n0t them, but me.
ii cant help tearg all of a sudden c0s it stil matters.
ii'v been saeing "at least uu b0ther" c0s it matters.
ii kn0w uu all care but ii just cant help it.
it's me nd 0nly me.
like again, ii cant d0 what ii n0e ii shud do.
tearg sucks but ii just cant help it.
n0rmal is what ii sh0uld b.
when peii askd bout him ii g0t all sad nd alm0st tear.
like always, ii always bcum vulnerable in fr0nt of peiis ;/
but ii just d0nt wanna tear all 0f a sudden like a dumbass.
ii n0e they care but ii d0nt want them t w0rry b0uts me.
ii d0nt want them cursing/swearg at him but ii d0nt kn0w why ..
ii d0nt kn0w what t sae nd d0nt kn0w h0w t end this.

pics shall be d endg.










buried mineself alive on d inside ; so ii can shut uu out nd go away for a long time.